Paths and Pages

It definitely just looks better to capitalize every word instead of leaving out articles and words three letters or less.

The actual bright side is that I’ve procrastinated writing this post as I would on any other writing project. It’s not a lack of “not wanting to”, but rather, the general idea of procrastination that has plagued me since forever that I also refuse to deal with. As long as it gets done, and gets done well, it doesn’t matter to me how it gets done. This blog will not be an example of things done well.

I should also at some point in time quit reminding people and myself that this blog isn’t very good right now. If this is about learning because I don’t want to look up a youtube tutorial, then yeah, the growing pains will be painful. From now on, I’m gonna not do that. That’s a goal. There should only be two posts like that, and I’ve reached my limit.

Today was more focused on the one freelance writing gig I do have right now, and then it was focused on the fact that my online presence is so minimal, I don’t know the best way to then build it up. So far, this place has been casual, which has been great for the learning goal here, but not as great for any future jobs, but it’s that casual feel that led me to stop procrastinating until 3 am, and instead do this now.

So, that’s where I am. At a crossroads still about what this should be and how I should proceed. However, I’m also under the mindset of anything I mess up in this process can be fixed. All will be okay, and life goes on. Even if it causes issues, it’ll work out in the end. It always has.

No longer as plagued by indecision, here’s the updated and more fleshed out goals:

1. Do this every day. I got lots of thoughts. No problem.
   • More importantly, take in as much as I can about whatever skills I can gather. Any and every skill here, I will consume them.
2. Grab any and every freelance job out there. I’m used to cold emails at this point. No problem.
3. Balance this new online presence with my desire for privacy.
   • The absolute worst part about being a writer is the need for attention, something I fundamentally hate. I’ve stopped posting on my cat’s Instagram because it’s received too many likes. That will happen here. I need to not do that.
   • Furthermore, I need to chill when someone online reaches out at all. I don’t like it. I need to deal with it. This may be the best way how.

Short and simple, all for the purpose of finding my way through this economy while also enjoying my craft. I like the tone of this blog so far, but I should still refrain from complaining too much. Complaining is my love language, but that doesn’t mean it’ll do me any favors should someone hopefully not look me up and come across this blog.

For now, I’ve been keeping myself private, but there are things that already link back to me, and I take no chances. Like, my email is already linked because the only thing I have to link it to besides my cat’s Instagram account, and I’m not going to link that unless that somehow really, really helps me. I just don’t think it will.

Anyway, I’m ending this ’cause I want to. And also because there’s the whole blog editor thing that I really need to figure out. That’s what I’ve been spending the majority of the time doing, and let me tell you, it’s a lot slower there.