Paths and Pages

I dunno, man.

People really do act like blogging is the definitive way to make money if you really, really try, but this thing just drained my wallet, and I’m still nowhere close to figuring anything out. I guess that’s just kind of the way it is though, right? You won’t know unless you do it. This domain is in a sad state right now, but I guess putting money into it will force me to really put my all into it (it won’t, but sometimes lying to yourself is the best way to proceed. That’s not even sarcasm. Proven to work.)

So, okay, this blog is aimless as of now, and that’s fine. I don’t expect it to make me a million billion dollars, but rather, I intend to learn from it. As I desperately search for a job, I have the time (but not the money) to put something into this. I hope to at least learn something. Whether that be a world of freelance (I’m a writer. You may not need to be a good writer to start a blog, but I can assure you, I’m a pretty good writer when I choose to be), or a way to figure out the crazy world of seo, or something else in between.

This first post won’t get me anywhere. That I know, and since I know, it also means I get to be a little less classy and a little more frustrated with the world. It’s obnoxious no one is willing to admit the economy is about to recess, and it’s frustrating that people laugh when you say you’ve applied for a few hundred jobs and heard nothing back, and when you do, you’re met with machines because people aren’t needed anymore. And it’s frustrating people are looking at the arts like they’re useless because machines can do them now. If this is all that’s left, what’s the point? Right?

Since this is also meant to sell myself in a way that’s professional, I can also clearly and definitively state that I know I’ll find a way. My sheer willpower to power through and get things done no matter the cost has been rather handy. If Fate exists, it dealt a bad hand, but at this point, I know how to weigh dice well enough for them to land in my favor.

Now, I may not be able to grab Fate by the throat and force it to comply with my demands, but at least it’s invisible. Invisible enough for me to assume that Fate may not exist, which means free will does, which means I have hope. If I’m ever unlucky enough to encounter Fate, I’ll be sure to throttle it with my little arms, but until that day, there’s hope that I can carve something out for myself. It may not be ideal, but it will be mine.

So, all of this is to say; this is a declaration to no one now cemented on the internet until I take it down; I’ll make my way. I’ll find a career I love and live a life worth living. No economic recession or excessive amount of fake jobs will tie me down, and I will find my way to the best there possibly is for me.

I will live alone in a nice place somewhere cold instead of oppressively hot, and I will have a hoard of animals that I like. Probably fish. I did not think I’d like fishkeeping as much as I do, but man, I love fish. And that will be all I need. Money, a place to stay, things to take care of, and it’s as simple as that. I don’t need much more than that. It won’t be much, but it will be mine, and that’s enough to be perfect.

So, the goal of this little blog is simply to learn. Learn all I can about writing, communication, and eventually, start specializing in an industry I enjoy. Learning can be fun, and I will make it so.

But, like, if Fate wants to make me a world-famous author one day soon, that’d be great. Thanks, babe.

For now, the first thing I’ve learned from this blog is that anything not considered a simple sentence is too long, and I think that’s sad. The second thing I learned is that, while my title certainly sucks, the titles generated to improve seo optimization really suck. They’re just bland. Then again, I think we all know by now seo demands a certain level of sameness. There’s likely a reason these titles are bland, and anything that’s not a simple sentence is too long. As a side note, the words “optimization” and “proceed” are considered complex words. I will not think too deeply about that.